i picked myself up and put myself back together. it wasnt good as new but it was good enough.
unfortunately, on what i thought was supposed to be a good birth month, life threw me a curve ball. it hit me square in the center and shattered me and broke me in pieces. it took awhile to build myself back up from that and honestly, i wasnt the same despite how i looked on the outside.
things were going well, sure there were a few hiccups here and there, but its a process so it wasnt too much of surprise. but suddenly, as if right on cue, shit hit the fan.the owner of the hobby shop where i spent almost 4 years with, decided to let go of the branch i work in.
to be honest, this has been a long time coming. what happened was nothing but simple mismanagement..as if its ever that simple.
again, i was hit right at the center and was shattered in a million pieces. right now, i just feel so discouraged and down.
a few of my friends see alot of things for me and its not that i dont see the opportunities, i see them as well, but im just too demotivated to do anything.
i loved being in the hobby business. i wish i could start my own but that needs money that i dont have. in order to get money, i need a job.
i dont know. maybe i need to be away for awhile.
