Sorry guys and gals, this entry is going to be a whole lotta feels.
As most..hopefully at least some..of you know my girlfriend is now currently in Australia studying and as of yesterday working part-time as well [Yay for her! She's been looking for work there for the longest time..].
With that, she will be away for a year...a year and a month at most. We have a few communication lines open to us so that we can talk to each other and see each other while she is away. But I can't say that it hasn't been difficult.
The first week was really hard...I couldn't sleep well and I kept wondering if she was okay over there. the next few weeks went well as I was assured that she was doing fine and that she was having fun at school.
Again, I am not regretting my decision of letting her go over there because I don't think that that's even a decision I could make for her. It's just that I am just missing her...ALOT.
We've been together for more than 2 years now and we've spent almost everyday we could together that we've grown accustomed to each other being close by. Now that she's a bit far away than usual, you cannot fault me for missing her badly.
It's the little things that kill me and make me miss her more.
The way she pinches my tummy and its sides.
When she rests her head on my shoulder.
When she holds my hands.
The way she laughs, the way she smiles.
The way she can brighten my day with a text message no longer than two symbols [which are : and *].
The way she greets me in the morning.
When she pouts.
When she scolds me for not cutting my nails [..which I think I better do in a bit LOL].
When she always reminds me to bring a jacket and umbrella to work.
The way her eyes open up when she sees something cute/something she likes.
How she tries to guess what my surprise to her is.
When we eat together.
When we watch TV/movies together.
Window shopping/Mall walking.
And the list goes on and on actually. It's sad and depressing but it's something we both endure daily. It's one of those things we have to sacrifice in order for us to be prepared for the future.
With her way over there in AU, it makes me realize how she really has made a mark in my life and how lucky I am to have her in it. I'd be completely lost right now if it weren't for her.
But...I must admit that I do get jealous of the other couples that I see, be it strangers or my friends. It's all because of those little things. You can't blame me of course, it's just that I do miss my girlfriend and if you haven't known by now...I am a bit more emotional and sentimental than most people thought I am. Even those little things can get me really affected. Then again, it's the memories of those little things that also makes excited when she comes back home.
Till she comes back, i'll be waiting.