And now, for something a little tevvanahd...

E tacanja drec.

E tacanjat fryd rybbahat du sa.

Pa ed uv lniam vyda un gynsy, E ryt drec lusehk.

Cra fyc nekrd du tu fryd cra tet. Fru ys E yhofyo? Fryd ys E? E ys hudrehk suna dryh cusauha fru tuach’d tacanja ran.

E lyh’d ajah dyga lyna uv socamv mad ymuha cusauha amca.

E tacanja drec. Drec byeh, drec muhamehacc, drec vaamehk uv ypyhtuhsahd.

Ev E teth’d tacanja drec drah fro fuimt cra mayja? Fro fuimt yhouha mayja fryd caasat mega y knayd namydeuhcreb?

Lmaynmo, drana’c cdemm cusadrehk fnuhk fedr sa. E tuh’d tacanja cusauha mega ran, E tuh’d tacanja yhouha yd ymm.

Fryd E tacanja ec drec….yht ed’c silr suna byehvim yht lniam dryh taydr.

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It's not working.

My mind goes haywire once I try to sleep at night.

Closer and closer to the edge.

I am tempted to just jump and fall.

That would end it and put my mind to rest.

Too much.

Things hasn't been well the past few weeks.

I don't want to get too detailed about it as I really have no idea what triggered the whole thing.

All I know is I have been left to tend to my own devices without as much as a goodbye.

I have been trying to bottle things up and my friends, the whole lot of 'em, have been trying their best to keep my attention diverted and keep me happy.

But it's all too much for me.

I can't keep containing it and it's bound to overflow sooner or later.

It just hurts and pains me so much that I haven't been sleeping well, I'm in danger of over-eating myself to death...I have even entertained the thought of smoking again.

I'm as lost as I was years ago. Something I thought I'd never be again.

I don't know what to do.